I couldn’t stop eating this weekend. It was AJ’s birthday; we had a family party and I TOTALLY pigged out on all types of things I’m not supposed to be eating. Gluten, dairy, cane sugar, eggs, yeast, etc… There was no holding back. I was dying to eat bread, and oh boy, did I eat a lot of it! Everything tasted SO GOOD, but that’s all it was. It tasted good and it looked good, but I sure didn’t feel good afterward!
It takes so much discipline to be on any sort of restricted diet. I have such a hefty list of foods I can’t eat and I get asked all the time, “So what CAN you eat?” Being disciplined isn’t easy for me; I LOVE food.
Course, there are always consequences for my lack of discipline. I was so sore and stiff this morning. My hands didn’t want to bend, nor were my knees interested in cooperating… and I’m sure this is just the start of the ramifications. I’m fairly confident more will follow in the upcoming days.
Sometimes it’s hard to find the motivation needed to be disciplined. Last night after eating a grilled cheese sandwich I promised myself I would get back “on the wagon” first thing this morning. Trust me, it’s something I don’t really want to do, but at the same time, feeling like I’ve been beaten with a baseball bat isn’t fun either.
I was reading emails on my iPhone this morning when I read a Bible verse (it was in an email devotional) that literally made me start laughing hysterically:
“No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. Make level paths for your feet, so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.”
How ironic. Just when I need a little kick in the butt to put on my big girl panties and get back on the band wagon, there it is. God has a funny way of lifting us up and dusting us off sometimes.
SO, beginning today, I am re-committing to my diet, to healthier living, and thanks to the inspiration of a fellow blogger, I am becoming nearly Vegan Megan. I’m saying nearly, because I’m still going to eat fish and other meat from time to time, just very, very sparingly.
If you haven’t yet discovered the blog Flare and Back Again (it’s one of my favorite arthritis blogs), you need to check it out. It’s author, Patrice, suffers from RA, is vegan, and is also gluten and dairy free. She’s an amazing writer and is very knowledgeable – not to mention she is a real encouragement and inspiration. :) Patrice shared with me that meat is very inflammatory for her, and suggested I cut back. I guess it’s something I’ve known I needed to do for a while now (Dr. Amy even told me I needed to do it), but wasn’t ready (nor did I want) to come to terms with it.
Thanks for the friendly prodding and support, Patrice!